Sketchbooks

So I have this tendency to want to purge everything that reflects my growth process... at least when it comes to art.  When I peruse through old sketchbooks (often times unfilled), I just want to throw them all away, which is also a tendency that would explain my lack of a thorough portfolio.  This behavior is probably due to my confrontation of my own imperfection.  The material is usually pretty poorly drawn, especially in hindsight.  For the most part, the content is pretty embarrassing and pathetic.  My reaction is to destroy any evidence of it.  Most likely, I have some issues I need to sort out.  In the meantime, I'll accept my own faulty qualities...  correct them but be flexible enough to accept them--or myself, as I am.